East Jesus Nowhere

Oh my god.

One of my best friends is moving. He’s originally from Brooklyn (we live in NC) and now he’s going back. I can’t believe it. He’s one of the few people who knows about my eating disorder, and even though he doesn’t think much about it, it’s still a comfort factor that he’s someone I can trust. Now he’s going to be miles away and my only contact will be cell phones and the internet. I’m super depressed. We’re texting (though my computer’s retarded and probably by the time I get this post up we’ll be long done with the conversation) and he told me he’s moving ‘cuz his family sold their Chinese restaurant here. Now they’re going back to Chinatown. Yes, he's Chinese, as you probably could already tell.

We’re gonna go bowling Friday. He wanted to for so long and things kept getting in the way. I’m gonna make sure I go this time. God, everything is getting fucked up. The best arcade in the city is closing; one of my best friends is moving (one of my others already switched schools); and I haven’t lost weight. I feel like crying. My friend (whom I previously referred to as David) is joking about it and doesn’t realized how upset I really am. Then again, how can he when we’re texting? Why does my computer not think that ‘texting’ isn’t a word? It keeps giving me that red squiggly line.

I think I’m just going to sit around and listen to depressing music for the rest of today. Oh- he also just told me that the arcade is basically moving across the street from where it originally was. Why the hell- eh, I’m to depressed to complain. Back to moping.

I need to fix the banner at the top. WAY too big!

Life Is A Show

Well, no one ever said it was a happy show.


Cassie Steele is so fucking inspiring. Even though she obviously didn't write this song, it doesn't stop me from loving it. Hell, Britney didn't write most of her songs.

I took the bus today to Wal-Mart to get some stuff, and there it was where I realized that there are some pretty damn repulsive people in my city. My city is pretty small, suburban I guess, and it seems like everyone who takes the bus doesn't shower. I was minding my business when a woman sat down next to me, even though there were plenty of other open seats, and smelled HORRIBLE. I almost wanted to vomit. Also, I felt like I was almost being squished because she was so big! God, couldn't she realize, one person per seat?

After a horrible day of binging and purging, my mom brought home a bunch of nachos for a snack tomorrow. Ew. My mom works on the weekends and leaves me home alone, so tomorrow, out goes the nachos. I can't take the bus tomorrow because they don't run on Sundays :( I tried to see if my friend *David would want to hang out, but he has work. Damn me and my inability to drive. I hate Science Olympiad because it made me have to quit my driving classes.

I need to study to retake my chemistry test. I got motherfucking 53. How the hell? I though I did a million times better than that. If I do better than my teacher will take the higher of the grades. You gotta love *Ms. Thomas.

Hello, World!

Hi! This is my first post here on this site :) I hope to update regularly.

Yeah, this is another pro-ana blog site. If you aren't pro-ana, then you might as well leave. I've been diagnosed with EDNOS... which, according to my mom, isn't too serious. Whatever.

For my online alias, I shall be known as Channelise T.I.P. It's all an anagram, if I were to spell out my last name, of my real name. First, last, and middle. I would like to stay anonymous from my real name though.

First day, so I don't think I've got much to say. I love music, if that's anything. Tokio Hotel, Sex Pistols, Britney Spears, etc. I know, it' a weird bunch, but what can I say? I love punk, emo, pop, rock, everything. Except screamo I can't stand the stuff. Oh, and Bill Kaulitz? One sexy, skinny RILF (rockstar I'd like to f***)

Movies are also wonderful. My favorites include Clerks, Moulin Rouge, Devil's Diary, Sid & Nancy, Gwoemul. I love sci-fi. I think I get it from my dad. I remember when I was in the fifth grade and so deperately wanting to see Predator. I thought it would be so cool; it was, but it was also pretty damn gory. I can't watch gore. I think it's the only thing preventing me from seeing Saw VI. That and crappy story lines.

Have you all seen Lady Gaga's "Bad Romance"? So weird. I love it though. There's also these clips where she's (obviously edited) really skinny with her spines sticking out. Is it just me, or has she lost weight since "Paparazzi"?